I am trying to loose weight, depression and stress has gotten the best of me. I started over-eating, and my b/f was always telling me i look good, or weight doesn't matter. I was anorexic for 12 years in my teens, if i gained a pound I felt like it was the end of the world. Now I need to loose weight, but in a healthy way, and fear going back to starving to do it, since I know in the back of my mind that is a fast way to get results, yes even though it is a mental disorder and not healthy. I hate myself right now, I look pregnant all the weight is in my midsection and back side. I am short, and weight reallly realllly shows on me. I am trying to stay away from my own negativity, and continue to eat, but in smaller portions, and healthier foods. I just fear trying to "take the easy way out".